This past Wednesday I had my two-week-long awaited LEEP procedure. Going into the procedure I thought I knew all there was to know, in terms of what to expect. Most women shared their experiences on forums, stating that it was not as painful as the colposcopy, and that they resumed work after the procedure. Let me tell you, that was NOT my personal experience. For the sake of being honest, I want to warn you that my story may be slightly graphic at times.
The week before the procedure I was filled with anxiety, and anticipation. I knew I wanted someone to go with me, but my first thought wasn’t to invite my husband. The weekend before the procedure he offered to go with me, and with slight hesitation I agreed to it. In my mind, inviting him was an inconvenience for him, and a discomfort for me. When all was said and done, I wouldn’t have wanted anyone else by my side. We got up early on Wednesday so I could get my Starbucks venti iced coffee (don’t judge!). Traffic was a breeze, aside from a minor construction detour, and we found parking right away. This being my OBGYN’s second office, and not the one I typically go to, it was a million-miles away from the quaintness of his Beverly Hills office. I walked into the waiting room, that was filled with other patients. By my observations, I would assume many of them are on the same government-assisted Fampact that I am on. We waited an hour, and in this “clinic” setting I wasn’t terribly surprised. When I was finally called in, I waited in an ultrasound room, to be taken to where the LEEP procedure would be performed. The room was clean, though I noticed the vintage baby blue exam room bed with stirrups, has seen it’s fair share. I spotted a dead cockroach under the sink, and tried to hide my….disgust. I know it must seem like I’m visiting a back-alley clinic of some sort, but to be honest most clinics are like this very one. I know, because I have been uninsured for several years now. They are underfunded women’s health clinics, that are run down from years of service. Yet their existence is crucial, no matter how they may look, or even smell. This place was the Ritz compared to others I’ve seen!
I was called into the LEEP room, and proceeded with the usual “from the waist down”. The nurse, and doctor both came into the room. The doctor reiterated that “we are going to do the LEEP procedure, because you have no children yet, and having them after this shouldn’t be a problem”. I assume he was referring to what I had told him about wanting a family, and having a procedure that would not affect that. Seeing as there are more drastic options when CIN II/III is involved. The nurse knows my sister as well, and asked questions about my new nephew. If it wasn’t for that light conversation, I might have really started to panic. I was told I would be getting a shot of local anesthetic to my cervix, and I would feel a pinch. It was more like a stinging sensation, and a painful one at that! I felt my heart start to race, and I became light-headed. I calmed myself by looking at the posters around the room. Posters of vaginas, and cervixes, and diagrams of pregnant bellies. Then I heard him turn on the machine, that would then cauterise the abnormal tissue. It was a strange sensation to feel the heat, but not feel the pain. Then, OUCH. He grazed the outside, the part that most certainly did not get anesthetized. Can we say, “curling iron burn”? Ladies, you know what I mean. He apologized, and carried on. Then he asked for the scissors. GULP, scissors? He proceeded to cut off the remaining tissue, and put it into a specimen cup. I must have looked curious, because he told the nurse she could show me. In my mind it looked like my whole cervix had been just removed, and put into a cup. In actuality, it was just the very end of my cervix, that contained the abnormal cells. Just like that the procedure was finished, and I was told we would wait for the biopsy results to confirm clear margins. Once the doctor and nurse left the room so I could get dressed, I was grateful to not feel any residual pain. As I was setting up the follow-up appointment, they asked if I needed anything for pain. Like a champ, I said, “no, I feel fine”. BIG mistake.
We got into the car, and it was as though I could feel the local anesthetic wearing off. I started to feel a throbbing sensation, very different from menstrual cramps. The pain and lack of breakfast, brought on pretty bad nausea. The whole car ride home I could not find a comfortable position to sit in, and every bump on the road was my enemy. With my husband nervously watching me in pain, he was able to get me a prescription for pain medicine. I just wanted to be home! I have NEVER ran quicker to my front door, got into the house, and filled up my hot water bottle. Laying on the couch, my husband finagled his way into being able to pick up my prescription without my physical presence. Which would’ve been my undoing! The pain medicine made me very drowsy, yet I could not fall asleep, so I spent my day watching hours of Call the Midwife on Netflix (Thank you Netflix!). The whole day I just kept thinking, “Out patient procedure they said?”, “Go back to work afterwards they said?”. Yeah right.
Needless to say, I survived. The cramps have come back to visit today, even though I felt pretty good yesterday. I’m glad to be sitting down at work, it forces me to relax. Doctors orders requires abstaining, and a follow-up in four weeks. I am hoping that the biopsy results will come in two weeks, and that the margins are clear of any more abnormal cells. I will go in for another pap smear in six months, and every six months until my pap smears are clear. I truly believe it was divine intervention that we found this when we did, and I have faith that the LEEP procedure will have been successful. I know now that I must take better care of myself, and that has included (amongst other things) adding Vitamin B12, Vitamin C, Vitamin D w/ Calcium, Vitamin E and Folic acid to my daily intake. However, there is one thing…I won’t give up the Starbucks venti iced coffee, just yet.
UPDATE 11.21.13
Went into the doctor today, with a suspected infection. There was a mild bacterial infection, as well as a bladder infection. Treating both with antibiotics, as we speak! I also received my results from the LEEP procedure. They confirm a CIN III diagnosis, with HPV cytopathic effect, and endocervical glandular involvement. However, THE MARGINS ARE CLEAR! That means, I will go in for a pap smear in 6 months. With the LEEP procedure, I still have a 10%-15% possibility of recurrence of CIN II/CIN III within 2 years. With that being said, I am praying for continued healing, and I am promising to be vigilant. Today my OBGYN asked me how my sister and her baby were doing, then he went on to ask me, “when is it your turn?”. I just laughed, and asked him jokingly, “I don’t know! you tell me?”. I take that as a good sign 🙂